I actually got goosebumps from reading your post! I was a lot the same way. It is really a special time in your life right now, now that you have answers and hopefully, hope. I saw a lot of me, as I'm sure most people here can totally relate.

It is not easy to accept this dx, as our brains continually tell us that we are ok.

feel free to post away! let it rip and get it out and hopefully get some perspective on all of this!