It definitely sounds like you could have bipolar & be in a mixed state where you have a combo of mania & depression. That's what I was in when I was diagnosed--lots of agitation & depression. I was misdiagnosed for over 30 yrs. (I was 48 when I was diagnosed with bp--52 now) with unipolar depression! The anti-depressants would send me into a hypo manic stage that just plain felt good so I thought the AD's were working, then after about 6 weeks or so, I'd crash , fall into another deep depression & the doc (I was going to a family physician) would increase the dosage or change me to another AD. This went on for years. My internal medicine doc saw me in a mixed state & sent me to a psychiatrist & that started the long quest (took 1 yr.) to get me on the right meds. Also, do you have bipolar in the family? My mother had it & genetics play a big role in bipolar.

It is good that you recognize your symptoms. Some people can't & then they go on to do destructive things. I went that route with over-drinking, over-spending, rash behaviors, etc. Good luck & let us know how you are doing.