Kept waking up last night, lost track of how many times. At least I was able to get back to sleep. If this is a side effect, well, it just had to affect the one thing I already have problems with.... I took a nap in the evening, and even then I'm still tired. Whenever I pick up a textbook it's like taking a tranquilizer. So basically, it's just added waking up at night to my list of things to look forward to. I'm hoping tonight's different.

Now that I've started classes, the anxiety and the stress and the negativity has returned with greater force. I'm worried I'm going to fail everything. So many things to read and papers to write, and those are my weak points. I used to love reading, and now it feels more like a chore. I can barely remember when I used to pick up a book and just immerse myself in it without reading at a snail's pace and rereading sentences over and over, or reading so fast in an effort to cover what I need to know. It's so tiring. I'm tired. I have an appointment tomorrow with my counsellor, so we'll see how that goes.

Now that I'm carrying a backpack, it's putting more stress on my back and shoulders. I've been neglecting (for a long time now) to do the exercises I'm supposed to and maintain good posture. My shoulders always hurt, but I'm used to it. Usually it's just when they're squeezed, sometimes (like now) it's a vague pain, and thankfully rarely, it can be excruciating. But that was a while ago. I did pull something when I stretched last week, and that hurt quite a bit... I have to watch how I stretch.

I just feel really stressed out right now, and I'm really hoping the medicine will start kicking in.