i don't even know if i belong here. i just took the domestic violence quiz and scored an 11. i know it doesn't really mean anything. but my problems don't really stem from my current relationship. i was hurt in the past and i guess now i'm just afraid. my husband doesn't physically hurt or threaten me but he does yell. at me, and i feel like he gets too loud with our kids. he has a quick temper, gets really loud. i try to step in to get him to lighten up. i was abused in a past relationship and have recurring depression, he knows that, all about it and i am sensitive. i cry easily, making him more mad. i just want to fix it. i love him and i know he loves me, i don't think he even knows he could be hurting me. i'm afraid to even say anything about it. he hates that i write on the depression board sometimes, says i make him look like a real mean or bad person but i can't really talk to him about it. he doesn't understand. he just asks if i took my meds and walks away. where do i belong? where do i fit in? i know it could be a lot worse as it has been for many of you. i'm just lost.
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