Stupid voices... they hold me back.. i hate them. when i get some hope they whine and complain and ruin everything.. in church we hear about god exposing our sins.. im at the point were im preparing for it... this sucks and it extremely frustrating. why wont they leave me alone and let me be happy!? they ruin my life and make me want to die. then they say they are god.. so on tup of it all iget a guilty conscience when i dont do they crazy stuff they want me to do.. if i didnt have god i would have probably killed myself by now..

more to come

this is pretty much a rant. id get in trouble if i told ppl in my church this.. i love them but they give me voices. i forgive them all.

WADDA I DO!? maybe ill ask my doc to "nuke the voices" im on 3 meds already though..