I think I've always had some sort of odd obsession with sex. I remember starting to daydream and fantasize about it when I was maybe 7 or 8 years old. I was exposed to pornography around that time also. Then, by the time I was 12 or 13, and had my own computer, I started chatting with older guys online, telling them I was a lot older than I am (17, 18, 19+). Sometimes we just friendly chat, but normally these guys I talk to, I sex-chat with them. If I send pictures, they're never of myself. I send pictures of girls I find online. I tell them fake names. Most of it is fake. The longest "relationship" I kept going was over a year. Most of them last a few months. Even when I don't want to do it, I can't seem to help myself. I'll do it whether I get actual pleasure out of it or not. I'll swear to myself that I'll never do it again, delete all my fake pictures from my computer, and delete my IM or whatever account, only to make a new one in a matter of weeks or two months tops. I know it is wrong, and I'm not even sure if it's legal - the fact that I use other women's pictures (normally off of facebook). But I can't stop! I'm a virgin, but none of the characters I've created that chat with these men (and sometimes women) are at all. I hate myself for this, and feel very pathetic and dirty.