that's when you know you're making progress, when you can finally see how your former T's agree and that they were right. Then you know you are seeing the big picture, the true narrative of your life. Then, as Asiablue says, you can start to pick parts of that narrative to work on as an overriding theme for that year in therapy, is what I do. my first year back with this T, it WAS attachment - it was a new topic to me, I learned all I could about it from books, and tried to piece together what my non-remembered past must have been like. Realizing I had no concept of attachment at all, I had a lot of catching up to do. But you are SO insistent that your childhood was great and you were attached to your mother and vice versa, that it doesn't give one much wiggle room to find any problems, except for when you were in the incubator. But I am reading a book that says preverbal depersonalization and derealization issues could arise from fixed feeding times, that the infant feels that they are powerless over their environment. Would that have been your case, do you know?