It always seems to return...I am so tired of it. I got through my SSI interview which was exausting then I came home was ok other than being totally exhausted with a headache from all the questions in the appointment(I am not very good with remembering dates of things, and specific information it almost hurts to try and dig all that stuff out of my brain.....I couldn't even verify my home phone number which was embarrassing.) And now the crushing depression is back and painful as ever. Its just difficult I guess because it seems whenever I manage to feel at least ok for a few hours I get hit with a massive avalanche of depression...instead of feeling relief over finally getting that appointment taken care of I feel anxious about it and like it would be stupid to expect it to work out.

Oh and to top it off my boyfriend and mom who 'aren't' breaking up are conflicting again. Earlier my mom was threatening to kick him out again...because he was likely being stubborn about everything again. But to be honest I don't really care at the moment....too depressed to react to it.