(((((((((((((((((((desirae))))))))))))))))))))))))

i am at a loss for words.. other than this:

we have choices... we all make our our choices in life. all thought your childhood may have been bad.. YOU have mad ethe choice to be the best you can be for your kids! that is what is important... you have been down that road of loneliness....because of that, you kids will be better for it!!!!!!!!!!
I am sorry that this happened to you!!