I think I do exactly what you're describing. It's like if we knew how we'd respond to the worst possible scenario, then it wouldn't be so bad if it really did it happen. We would be prepared, and that gives me comfort. But sometimes I just can't figure it out, and I have to find a way to put it out of mind or distract myself from those thoughts because otherwise I stress myself out for no reason! I have not talked to my T about this, because it doesn't really interfere with my life so much as other things, but if you feel you need to explain yourself, go for it. I think it would help .