I have the same thing... I'm not suicidal and I'm not depressed. I am curious. I am more intrigued as to "what if", u know? It scared me at first too... I think it's normal to wonder at some point in your life. But whether u act on it is another story... Is there any part of your life that you feel like you have no control ovr? That could be your subconscious wanting more control ovr your life...