I am sorry-- Yeah I was pretty mad at me Wednesday morning with a lot of things and this sort of pushed a button that I hate to admit that I am still working on......

Tonight, before work- (I had winners from the ones I had got) I got a pop and said when I went to the cash register- I will put these on my card and I have these to turn in and I want these one dollar ones..... lol... of course this was a different gas station, it was a different person-- but still....

After i did this I thought about this morning, about how with MY Communication as well can be a big help-- Even if I have to say a million times to one person -- even if I "think" they remember me....
A little demanding of me to expect them to remember me I think right now.... LIke I work in a customer based job, Customers that I see some once a year or bi yearly -- rarely every quarter these days but none the less... Some People I don't remember but they remember me.... Some People I really Remember and they vaguely remember me.... and Some of it is the same - we both remember each other

I had worked at a gas station for a few months when i was younger, had to quiet due to anxiety and other things-- but a lot of people traffic through those things, if you are not in their everyday -- I can see it easily being missed....

Lee you make me laugh, that is one thing-- I don't want to make a scene! I was mad at myself this morning as well being polite with "Oh Geez Thanks, and Have a good day too" and all smiles.. then as walking to my car i was good that is not what I wanted

In the end it is all ok- hey maybe it is a "sign" to stop this silly thing too
But it is ok- due to I had almost made back what was put in (THIS ROUND), and some things were bought with that round's winnings.......

Getting calmer when upset with myself I need to work on too--- not being so bothered...

But like I said, tonight was a little reminder of MY Communication with others too -- helps out....

Thanks all and many 's back