((((((((((((((((( fayerody )))))))))))))))))))))
I am so sorry that you have to go through this.
I dont really know what to say, besides try to do something that usually helps you when you are very anxious.
And try not to think about your "tragedies". I know it will be hard, but if you think about good memories, then maybe the bad ones will fade away for awhile.
I hope I could be of help.
I also hope you get SO much better.
PM me if you want.
Take good care.
Big safe hugs,
-Megan-