I'm James. I'm 42, male, never married-my younger sisters are married with children and have men with stable careers like a teacher. I have my AA but never finished college to get my BA like my sisters. I feel like an underachiever and a loser and not really a man. I take meds and they help but not totally. I have been with depression for over 10 years. I am just a cashier at a thrift store. I've only had dead end jobs, never a career. I don't like cashiering. It's boring. I despair about finding a job I would like to do.