It is hard when your emotions are swirling about like crazed animals in a cage. I hate roller coasters, especially the ones in my head! (like I am sure you hate yours, as well!) I am sorry you are going through this! I hope that maybe for you, the rides can become merry go rounds, or something more fun! (trying to keep it light too!) But seriously, I am glad that it sounds like your family is supportive, or at least is loving, that is great!
I am glad you posted.
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