I know that's right! Lol I feel like I am living for the first time. I had been in bondage for over half of my lifetime. Lately I have had wisps of a feeling I faintly remember having when I was a child of about age 3. I remember it was a clear blue sky, the bluest sky I have ever seen. Not a cloud in sight. I was swinging on a swing in a beautiful area, I don't know exactly where. The grass was brilliantly green, as if every single blade had taken 1,000 years to construct by a master artist. Each one was perfect. I swang and swang, my hair carelessly but happily dancing in the breeze. I felt, innocent, pure, whole. I remember that memory. I felt that feeling for the first time in probably, 25 years, about a month ago. It didn't last very long, but boy, I noticed it. It had been hidden by another, "doomed" feeling, that came to be my normal state of mind shortly after that swing memory. I am glad to be alive, and every day holds new experiences. I am glad to be living a sober life. I am finally, free. Sincerely, Glinda Gail