I feel okay today. I am pretty manic, though.

Maybe not as much as yesterday. But yesterday I was that really super angry / dysphoric type mania. I just wanted to put my fist through the wall. I need to call the hospital today. I left a message with my other surgeon (the one that took out my gallbladder - he is a seperate entity from the murderers.) Anyway, I left a message asking how dangerous it would be to leave this stent in for a while.

This isn't easy for me. A big part of me just wants to say I'll be fine and do nothing. I don't deal with this type of stress too well. But, I know that's wrong. I am also going to look into medicaid again. Last year my middle boy was elegable but we weren't. Maybe now that the baby is born we'll be elegible. Because also yesterday we went for the first time in two years to get my husband's ADD meds because there is now a generic, and it was listed on the formulary as preferred... and guess what! That was a lie. Anthem requires you get brand for our plan. Ha!