I am happy u r able to easily find a way to improve yourself. Thanks for your honest and open reply. I go on facebook everyday. it is what you say. there is a better place there. it's not real though. I never thought I would be a person who is so self centered that it controls me. I find that if I see it in someone then it is not good for me. I want to be the one who is given attention to not always chasing down eveeryone all the time. if I follow this path it is too bleak and I give up because I'm not fond of being alone all the time when the system needs to control me.