Just in case, I put a trigger icon cause I get pretty mad...

Ok. So, long story short, my parents had "disowned" me at the time in my life where I really needed them. (we are "better" now, and I am part of the family again) The other day, my mom calls me and says "I got summoned for Jury Duty, but there is a box here that says if 'you or a family member were a victim of crime, check here.' Do you think I could get out of Jury Duty if I check that? I mean you were, so why not?"

I was so mad! I wanted to scream at her, "you didn't even care about me at the time that happened! I didn't get to call you or get hugged by you or cry with you! You didn't even know it happened until I told you 2 years later!" So I just told her "Yeah, if you want to check the box, why not? I mean, it happened, so go ahead and use me to get out of Jury Duty." I even said it all nice too, so she didn't even know I was mad.

I wish I had said something. And it's even harder now because the anniversary of it is coming up on the 12th/13th and Halloween time makes it even worse, triggers are everywhere until it's over. I hate this time of year. I can't hide from it either. And my kids love trick or treating and going to costume stores. I have dealt with it so far but it gets worse instead of better each year. I talk to my T about this, and I am trying, but why hasn't it gone away yet?

And, I mean, it could've been so much worse, many here on PC have had it way worse than me. I am here and alive and I did survive, but that doesn't make it go away. I wish it would. Ok. I gotta go. Can't get all freaked out at work thinking about it.

Thanks to anyone who made it to the end of this.