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I've got to work on my other issues in therapy, like shame. That helps me. I don't know why I refuse to do that.
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Yes, don't forget this!
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My parents...criticised me, but my Mom thought she was helping. I've said before on here, like "You're so pretty; so why don't you stand up straight?" Things that made me not feel I was okay the way I was.
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It doesn't matter if they didn't mean to hurt you. What they did still affected you.
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I lived in my own world, not sharing my feelings with anyone.
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Hmmm, think about this. Sounds like your parents were closed off too so this is why you had to develop your own world?
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I always felt like an outsider.
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Again, you must have not been allowed into their world (because this was the type of people that they were, emotionally closed off).
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I do feel powerless over my environment, though. Always!
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Not feeling secure while growing up?
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Maybe that's why I didn't talk. My T said it was a way to control my extreme anxiety.
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Ditto.
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I just want these feelings about my T and therapy to go away already.
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Maybe this is why you aren't pulling together all of this info Rainbow because you aren't really allowing yourself to connect with it and digest it and really figure out what it all means to you?
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The child parts would climb into T's lap and she would hold them for a long, long time. As long as they wanted. It would never have to end.
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Because you didn't get this as a child.