So I talked to T about this today and it was interesting. He said it was totally normal, especially for me. He said since my brain defaults to negative thoughts...for two reasons (chemical imbalance-bipolar, and past events) and I have severe anxiety from being off anxiety meds that this would happen. He said normal people do this all the time. He said he does it all the time, but I am going to be more prone to the negative bad worst case stuff. He said people think about stuff like driving off the side off the road and what would happen all the time. That actually wasn't exactly where I was going, but I have done that. Mine was more like having bad things happen. He said it would make sense that my brain doesn't shut off, but when I find my self doing it I should try and refocus on things like my goals and day to day stuff that I need to do. I guess it was just comforting that he was not phased at all by it an insisted whatever scenarios I was running it was going to be perfectly normal considering my past.