Well sort of angry I suppose...I don't know it is hard to describe how exactly I feel when I do that. It usually involves me feeling stupid about how I reacted to something or whatever, or I might not even have any specific reason just so much adrenaline like energy that seems to be the only outlet...but yeah it usually only happens if my PTSD is triggered, or if my anxious/depressed feelings get out of hand. I don't know it is harder then I assumed it would be to describe.

Also I am still waiting for an appointment with a psychiatrist later this month, not sure were that will lead as for therapy I may not be able to do that even if I do want to until I get on SSI and medicaid if I get on those. Also I think maybe some sort of anti-anxiety sedative type prescription could help maybe I'll inquire about that...I mean I would much rather take a Xanax or whatever they'd prescribe and be mellowed than bang my head against a wall till I can't feel anything.