not all therapist/patrients are a match. finding the right therapist i think is like finding a best friend (not in the idea of you guys being best friends in the end, but in the idea that you don't meet someone and automatically become best buds.) It sounds like you hav a clear idea of what you need and you know that you are getting it. Can you talk to your t about it? Maybe you can tell her what you wrote? Or if it isn't working, it wouldn't hurt to try another t. She will understand, I'm sure.