Well. what i see here is what in psychology is called a fearful attachment. You felt like you werent loved you say and maybe you also felt like your partner was not going to be able to meet your emotional needs, or you were afraid of being unlovable which you state and lastly you did want the relationship, which is why you waited. Im no Dr john grohol *big grin* but im just taking what i learned and applying it, sorry it turned out to be on you lol, if this does offend you.

What im going to say is, of course your not unlovable, im sure that you have many good qualities about you and that your loveable. Secondly, of course your not a *****, why would anyone marry a *****? right? You just have to have some self esteem, thats a major problem im working on. As for not meeting your emotional needs, its obvious that he didnt, and so its better for you to be on your own, and working on yourself, and maybe you will find someone who will be able to love and support you ten times more than your spouse did. Its obvious he didnt love you at all if he cheated on you. Thats really rough. I hope things get better for you in the future, and that you overcome your fearful attachment. Lol. Its nothing something you want to keep carrying with you. Believe me, i have one myself im trying to work out. I hope i didnt offend you by trying to apply what i learned, i tend to remember things better that way, and since im gonna have an exam on it someday, i better start now. Anyways, good luck, believe in yourself, your a worth while person whose worth loving and who deserves to be loved and supported, just like all of us here do. Good luck *hug*

"in a haze a stormy haze i'll be round i'll be loving you always, always...here i am and i take my time here i am ill wait in line always, always..." ~coldplay~