I got upset at the end of session today before it was time to leave. T asked me to tell him what was wrong and I was quiet on the verge of crying. Then he was like you do this before the end of session a lot, is it because you don't want to leave? Then I think he asked me to tell him again what was wrong. But I spazed out and said no and and RAN out of there as he was talking, and didn't say anything to him.

I've never done anything like that before. No, I never want to leave session. But I was upset because of something I had been thinking about in session. I just didn't have the time to get it out and I freaked last minute. I feel like he was accusing me of doing something wrong. I couldn't run out if there fast enough.

The end of session DOES trigger the most emotional reactions out of me. BUT now I feel like he just thinks I was trying to steal more time. I don't know what to think of what happened.

I know I actively got upset because we were talking about my progress and lack of progress in certain areas of therapy. Even though he reassured me it was okay as long as I kept making progress in some areas. But now I don't know...was I subconsciously trying to stay longer? Was he actually right? What does it even mean if I was?

I'm feeling like such a horrible person right now.