Your post has really touched me.I am way down in New Zealand and you might be living in Sweden but I read what you said and understand how you are feeling right now,and I wish I could express how much I care for you.It sounds to me like you have a huge amount on your plate and you are feeling overwhelmed by it all and being there for everyone else.You are obviously a very good friend to many and that speaks volumnes about what a compassionate caring person you are.Please know that you are a tremendously worthwhile person and many care greatly about you.I hope that you can just quietly spend some time doing something just for you and not be too overidden by others needs right now. I am thinking of you and am here for you.You seem too have a deep understanding and great insight.I only hope you can know that you arent on your own and things will improve, they always do.The light will burn brighter.