P.s. you belong here, and I accept you! I truly do! We all want to belong and be accepted, some more than others. I drank and did drugs to overcome that insecurity. It worked for a while, but made it worse in the end. I find that comparing myself with other people is an exercise in futility. I can always find someone I don't measure up to, or that I percieve is "below" me. Really, with the mask off, we are all human beings with the need to love and be loved, to accept and be accepted. In financial situations (I'm in one now btw) the fear of insecurity is always worse than the reality. Just do the best you can today, right now, and things will work out. Tomorrow is not here, there is nothing you can do about it. Thank God. All we have to do is right here, right now. Ok, this is the end of my sermon!