I am at the lowest point I have EVER been. I am so stressed that I've become psychotic and my breaks with reality are crushing. I've never been this way before. Ever. I took off work again, I have no choice. I can't do this anymore. I won't. I am a Tsunami, people dread my presence as it causes much destruction and pain. People feel relieved in my absence and can experience peace and joy. I'm not okay in any way. This has been building up for quite a long time. I will fight forever no longer. . .

Dear T,
I so badly wanted to see you one more time to resolve things. This apparently is not an option. I am no longer going to fight for my need to have resolution. I no longer care.