***Trigger Warning, mention of cutting and Satanic****

Well I have been cutting a lot lately, around 150 of them in the past few days.

The last 80 cuts I did was 2 nights ago, and I was barely awake, and can barely recall doing them.

During that night, I carved satanic symbols into the tops of my hands.

I felt like I was evil and that I didn't deserve any better.

I'm scared I'll have the scars forever