{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Carrie}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

You sound like you need a hug. I don't know what to tell you beyond that I am proud of you for recognizing your feelings and their source. You know that you are a good person, no matter how these people make you feel. Venting to someone safe (like us here) is probably the best thing that you can do.
((((((((((((((((one more hug)))))))))))))))))))
Wendy

<font color=orange>There is an easy answer to your problem that is neat, plausible, and wrong.

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