Ok you should nvr quit medication without a treatment plan. It can really have horrible side effects (quitting a med abruptly like that). I know, I was hesitant to take medication as well, bc I thought it would make me someone else. But it didn't. It was me, only more aware and more in control. I can't rly explain it, but it really shouldn't change who you are. And if it does, then there is something wrong... It sounds like you and ur doc should sit down and work out what each of your goals are. It sounds like there is miscommunication going on...