My ex-husband texted me Saturday. Like an idiot, I responded. He said he was at a bachelor party, and he and an old friend of mine were talking about me (fondly - he said). It turned into a conversation that got weird.

He said he wished I was there with him, and that we'd have a good time. I asked him why he thought that, and he said "don't make me say it".

I was married to him. We were married almost 11 years, and I left him due to neglect. He's remarried and has a baby girl, BTW. He got married within a year after our divorce...

Usually, I bring up the wife and ask how they are doing. It's always "Great!"

This time, I didn't bring up the wife, but she is always on my mind when he texts. Because I know she doesn't know...

So he asks if I'm dating (we've been divorced nearly 5 years), and I said no.

He said he was at a strip joint, and I mentioned I'd been to one a few times since our demise. He asked why didn't I ever go with him and responded - you never asked!!! He says, Seriously wish you were here. And I told him to enjoy the view, and he says I always wanted one more chance to have an honest conversation. And then he says he'd like to hang out soon.

Haven't heard from him since. Not surprised. He was high and drunk, and constantly texting. From a strip joint.

I have no regrets. I don't. Having dating the men I have, and now hearing that from him puts my faith a little less into finding a good man to be with me.

Because it doesn't mean anything. Nor do I... and I think that's what hurts the most. I shouldn't be so hurt, but I am. I know I'm lumping men into one category that I shouldn't; I am so tired of being treated like nothing. Why do I keep finding these jerks? And what does that say about ME???

Who I really feel bad for are his wife and kid. They have no idea. And that makes me feel even worse. They don't deserve this... Whether they know it or not...