Oh don't be embarassed online! You're anonymous. I really don't care what you do enough to judge and this is just a message board...I don't know you from anyone else and I may feel for you as a human but, what you do or what happens to you can't really matter to me. For all I know you're a 15 year old girl, rather bored perhaps and making things up...I made up characters online at 15!

I'm just curious as to why you're drawn to cheat when you have a husband. For me, it doesn't make much sense. For you, it gives you a question to explore.