It's definitely not attention seeking - you're going through something difficult and reaching out for support, and I see nothing wrong or contrary in that. It's really great that you are posting here - I agree with dailyhealing in that I feel really grateful to know you can. Somewhere it's assuring to me as well.

I'm celebrating that you have not hurt yourself in three days. That's three huge steps - and well done.

I'm wondering if it would be possible to call your therapist and tell her/him about the anxiety loop that the session has led to. Sometimes in therapy we touch upon things that are disturbing, and those become relivings of experiences... you know? So it may help to talk to the therapist.

The other thing I wanted to say was that I think shame is the other side of anger - if you are shameful, you are either imagining anger towards yourself for something you've done "wrong" or you're just really angry with yourself. That can sometimes help to look it the question of guilt and shame like that; guilt and shame are difficult to work through -- anger on the other hand... not AS difficult. Not as ... helpless.

Love and hugs!