I can relate. I used to be slim, beautiful had no problems getting a date. When I became depressed I was put on Paxil and bang overnight (it seemed) I gained weight a lot of weight. I hated myself. I was in the hospital crying all the time. Finally, years later I said I'll never look how I did when I was in my early 20's. But I'm healthy. At this age that's all I want know. My family is wonderful. My husband is very supportive. I still dress nice. I'm fashionable and my hair is stylish. I dont care. Dont get me wrong I would love to lose the weight but I do the best with what I have.
Hold your head up high and be yourself. Your inner beauty will show. But being plus size is beautiful too. 12 year old daughter says "more woman to love" lol

"you only have one chance to make a first impression"