it's a good list...all those things are nasty many of them nasty for me too.

it's an odd contradiction of treatment. "I am failing in my current state of mind".....
and

"please give me a better alternative"....."PLEASE!"

I arrived at this 'demand' when I was 28....years of drug abuse and suddenly stuck in a rehab I was personally disintegrating for the first ever time..

there was no way out of it I knew they were there they were available and just like drugs ...I trusted them and tracked them down and never stopped...I needed something...apart from being myself

anything apart from feeling like me PLEASE sir PLEASE mam ...doctor give me that now! I cannot handle being me

and this was even before I was diagnosed...that came two years later and what a task that must have been for them and still is

the worst side effect for me was just yet another alternative experience of being myself and that I already lost that beforehand ...who I was?...then I just got further away

effexor
olanzapine
stelazine
respiridol
citalopram
temezapam
lorazepam
evanza
dexamphetamine
aropax
zoloft
baclofen
xanax
valium
naltrexone
valpro
...some I cannot remember...