(((LostMom3)))

I am so sorry. It sounds like a horrible situation to be in ~ one that you DO need to get out of for your own physical and mental health.

I'd certainly advise you to contact your county's Social Services department for help asap. The social workers are very good and kind. They do have YOUR best interests in mind when coming up with options for you to choose from.

While the thought of ending your life may feel awfully tempting at times, try to remember the good times. Getting out of this current bad situation will bring a lot more good times back into your life again, making your life more manageable. Please don't forget that people truly love you and they want you to be happier. You do deserve better!