I have just phoned my therapist. First time I have used Skype to make a landline call and it was a really crappy line. Fortunately we understood each other enough for her to work out I want to come and see her and she is looking out appointments for me. It was so good to hear her voice after ten years. Especially feeling bad like I do now. Really, really good. I feel better just because I know I'm doing something.
Thanks to you guys for being so clear about me going back tp therapy.