I went to pdoc today and I had to tell him about this issue. It went so badly.

I had to see if it was my meds making it worse or if we could correct it with meds. So he asked me why I have a problem focusing and I told him that I run a lot of scenarios. Then he asked what kind, and I said bad ones but I didn't elaborate because it really didn't matter if he knew. He stopped everything he was doing, and looked up at me like I grew three heads. Then he basically told me that it WAS weird and that normal people DON'T do that. But we ran out of time right at that moment and he said we would discuss adjusting stuff next week when I see him again. Now I feel like I'm totally weird and wrong for doing it again.

I feel like he totally undid everything T did. I don't know if I believe T or if he was just trying to make me feel better about it? Pdoc is always straight forward about things. Now I'm unsure who is right about this issue. Why do they see this oppositely? Pdoc put enough doubt in my head to believe I'm all screwed up for doing this now.