My boyfriend is an alcoholic.

A friend met through this forum recommended I read "Woman Who Love Too Much" which I am about half way through. I find it very eye opening, and easy to relate too. I also found that yesterday, after having been home sick and reading a large chunck of it, I felt empowered somehow.

I decided I wanted things to change for good, and I had this whole speech planned out in my head about how my boyfriend had to make positive steps to change or he had to leave, because I didnt want to live like this anymore.

Well when he finally got home from work, he claimed to just be really high, but looked and was acting drunk so of course there was no point in talking to him. I tried to anyways even though I was really upset, but he refused to talk saying that I would just think he was drunk, which I'm sure he was. He said he was going out for a cigarette, and left for two hours. While he was gone he text me saying he had gone for a walk and that he loves me so much.

The night left me feeling very helpless and upset. Just needed to vent.