glad you are ok-ish and came back i knew you left for the night, no worries. but.. you might not want to have yourself always logged in, if your husband is tech savvy at all...

i know you feel bad about cheating on him. And it's hard to make the divorce decision with kids involved. but your kids are pretty much grown right? you're same age as me, got married at 20 too. So now you need to consider the life with just you and your husband... doesn't sound very loving or fun... you shouldn't have to settle for a dead relationship. I dont know your financial situation either, that would be a big factor in leaving the marriage as well.