side effects of bipolar self medication!...

"trying to make ourselves better"....as opposed to "trying to make our experience better"

ooh thats complicated!...could be the same thing?

sex and masturbation...using and abusing relationships physically or avoiding them completely because of insecurity and overindulging anyway.
smoking weed...anytime all the time or just occasionally
drinking alot and not just later but early and often
poking deadly chemical needles into veins or just using the nose for more than it's designed for
eating only the tasty stuff and alot...buying only what tastes good not healthy
sleeping all day after half a night of half sleep staying in bed anyway stuff it!
blowing cash buying crap just to spend so I cannot be blamed later by idiots for having money anyhow and wasting it
isolation...being determined to utter not a word if possible for as long as possible!...addicted to silence
smoking cigarettes.....but only when upset
breaking the law....self medicating with rebellion


maybe that might help Hammy