Now I'm just frustrated by how I sent it. My email was quite sarcastic (use humor as a shield of course) and dismissive. Idk if she'll realize that it meant a lot to me and shows my view of the world because I went out of my way to make it seem like no big thing in the email so that if she didn't like it or it wasn't appropriate, I could be like 'well, yeah...i knew that which is why i said what i said in the email'