Maybe for lots of you my problem is just some small problem, sth what doesn't really matter actually. I know that lot of people has really big and serious problems in their lifes... But from my thinking and feelings about myself depends my future. Depends who I am. And who I'll become in the future. That what I do is whole my life. I can't breath withouth this. From that depends my career, work, everythink... And now I'm again down, again from the same reasons. And this time it's just rediculous. I'm a bit tired of this problem I try to truggle with. Maybe someone has any idea what can I do? How to win with it for a while at least?...
Everythink would be fine if not one email I got today. This one email made me small and uncertain who I am and why I'm doing still that what I'm doing. Suddenly I felt that I'm stupid because I don't understand spanish. I felt that I don't deserve to be among those other people. That I'm not enough good to think even that I'm good in my profession. I'm afraid that my dreams will stay in my mind for ever. That I'm not able to made them real.
I know that we never should sell us short. That I should to believe in myself. Because lots of people told me, that I'm good. I heard so many times that someone doesn't understand why I'm so insecure, why I don't see that reality is a bit different than my thouhts, why I have such a big problems with beliefe... I'm tired of that. I want to change this!!! The only thing is... I have no idea what can I do more to change my thoughs. To believe in myself and to think "I'm one of the best, I deserve to be, where I am! I'm enough good to be among other and that, that I don't know 4th language doesn't make me stupid!". How to be sure of it... Last month was quite good. Calm. I started to build my confidence again. But this week made me again small with the same complexes. Any idea how to be over them?