Too late now, but I feel sick about the way I have been treating others and how angry I have been. There is no excuse for the way I have acted and I am ashamed. I feel hurt because I hurt other people. I do apologize, I am sorry and contrite for what I have done. I can't change my horrid past, so I am vowing to change. I am vowing to do my best to remain mindful when I am compulsive and/or in an enraged state of mind. I am hoping I will have no more psychotic endeavors. I am really cycling through moods/compulsions, etc. I hope that people will forgive me. I am disillusioned with myself. Thanks for enduring another lengthy post. This is where I'm focusing my compulsiveness, and it's working. It has been switched from real life to here, because no one will listen to me talk this much irl, so people can choose to read or not to read, lol. My dog listens to me, though.