hey kiwi i've dabbled with a bit of self-harm before and it's sort of come and gone with my depression. the thing is though, u can become sort of immune to the reality of what ur doing. u regret it at first, but it soon becomes normal to u. u don't need to self-harm frequently or badly for it to be a problem, the fact that ur turning on urself like that is in itself enuf to constitute a problem. i'm seeing a psychologist atm and occasionally i will self-harm or get the urge to do it (mind u, i've gotten a lot better, like every couple of months as opposed to everyday!), and she asks me what was doing thru my mind, what exactly i was doing leading up to it,etc,so i see what triggered it off. i also have some strategies to hold out when i have the urge...like i'll bargain with myself to hold out for an hour and in that hour i'll try to do something productive and then i can usually resist. hope this helps