I logged back on to answer you, Sannah. I think it really IS about the need for my T, or someone like her. It IS about those unmet needs. That is what hurts the most. It's about ME wanting those things from SOMEONE but that SOMEONE DOESN'T EXIST! Is that distraction? It's what hurts, those NEEDS not getting satisfied. Am I in denial or something?
I meant NEEDS as a noun, not a verb in my previous post. Is that why I'm confused?