Treehugger I believe my kids see it. Actually I've had talks with my 18 yr old. She understands how I feel. She actually said "mom it's like you grew up and Dad didn't" it's been 20 yrs and I agree wholeheartedly. Don't think she would be shocked. Just very sad. I am working part time as a dental assistant. If I went full time id be able to make it on my own. Just been trying to be here for my kids. But maybe a change is really needed. Prob why I'm on here. For support to move on past all the demons n