..im sorry, mabye i should just go away.
i don't think the appointment will help honestly.
its over for me.
i need to end myself before i lose who i am.
i wanted to do great things in life!
i wanted to become a violinist, and a book writer, whom would become quite famous.
but i have so many mental problems.
normal life just isn't possible for me anymore.
and no matter how much i want to do great things,
theres the voice inside my mind, telling me that i am the terrible things i described in my first post.
and it never stops.
i want the suffering to stop.
i want it to end.
i want to stop existing.