You all are such wonderful people! Thank you so much for your support. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for being here for me. I am so glad I met every single one of you.
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I am doing much better today. I haven't hurt myself. Yesterday I was way close but took an ink pen to my hand instead and wrote down a palmful of affirmations. I am beautiful. I am a child of the infinate and deserve kindness and love...those are the only two that I can still make out. Permanent marker isn't all the permanent on the palm. Ha ha. But I really am doing better. I have decided to leave immediately after the funeral. That way I will be able to get back to town in time to have dinner with the women of my family-in-law who have been there and shown me what a family can be.
Gotta get back to work.
Love you all,
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft